“I can’t believe he broke up with me…” I told myself while I was alone in a small dark corner of the library.
I was looking down at him through the library window. Kyuhyun was still as handsome as ever. I remember the feelings that I used to get when I looked at him. The joy, love and the giddy feeling I felt inside. However, that was before. That was when he was my guy.
But now, that love I felt in my heart was covered with pain. My heart aches for him. He was my first love. I often dreamt about a future together. I couldn’t imagine myself without him. However, I guess I have to move on with life. We are not a couple now. We are two different separate individuals. How can he just fall out of love when I was doing everything I can for our relationship? Are all boys like that?
I blinked my eyes. I didn’t want to cry. It would be really embarrassing if someone see me crying over a guy. I should not cry. Well at least not in this secluded part of the library. I would look emotional and pathetic… But isn’t that the truth? My boyfriend just broke up with me because of some other girl that he is attracted to. I wanted to stop my tears from falling. But I couldn’t help it. I succumbed to my trembling knees and sat down. I covered my face with both hands and cried.
“Weak, weak, weak.” I heard my interior monologue mocking me.
Yeah. I can’t help it. I’m heartbroken.
I heard a masculine voice voiced out. He sounded as sarcastic as my interior monologue. I raised my head to see where that familiar voice came from. Then, I saw Sungmin. He’s my classmate at some of my subjects.
“Okay. This is embarrassing.” I said out loud while wiping my tears.
“Please don’t tell anyone that you saw me here.” I asked him.
“Sure, tough girl.” He answered and sat down at a chair across mine.
I saw the book that he was holding. The title was ‘Chocolate: Riches from the Rainforest’. I couldn’t help but be shocked at seeing this tough guy reading a chocolate recipe cookbook. As I continue to observe him, I saw him took something out from his bag and handed it over to me. I looked at what it was.
“Chocolate?” I clarified.
“What’s that for?”
For you to eat. Duh. My interior self told me.
I mean. Why would he give that to me?
“For you to eat.” He answered with no fuss.
Then I heard my mean self laugh sarcastically. That was obviously a silly question. I felt my cheeks warming up. This is really embarrassing. He gave me a really sweet smile.
“The chocolates are sweet right?”
I nodded. I was silently trying to tell my body to act normally. I’m blushing badly. If he asks, I’ll blame it on my hormones!
“The sweetness of the chocolate will help you lessen the bitterness of your recent break up.” He explained.
“How did you…”Wow, he was right. That was a good analogy. Why haven’t I thought of that earlier?
“How did I know that you just came from a break up?” He continued my question.
“I overheard his break up conversation with you. Sorry, I shouldn’t be eavesdropping but I couldn’t help it! He sounded like a real loser so I listened to him for a good laugh.”
My mind processed what he said.
“So you think our break up was for a good laugh?” I said, sounding insulted.
“No! That’s not what I meant. I felt that Kyuhyun is someone to be laughed at, not your break up.” He clarified.
“He was really stupid for letting you go over some girl who is not even as nearly as pretty and intelligent as you are.” He further explained.
Wow. That was flattering. I mean the compliments came from a guy like him. That must mean something. I forced a smile.
“Geez… Thanks.” I said out of embarrassment.
I looked at the chocolate that he gave me. I took out its wrapper and ate it. Wow. Chocolate has never tasted this good before. I looked at him.
“This is good.” I said.
“Well, what can I say? I’m a genius right?” He said with a contented smile on his face.
I can’t help but smile. It was the first real smile I had ever since Kyuhyun and I broke up.
“Right.” I said in a tone as if I was forced to agree,
“What?” He said defensively.
“Chocolates are sweet. It has endorphins also known as happy hormones. See? You are already feeling better. I like to give myself a tap on the back.”
I smiled at his statements. He is smart. I already knew that since we were classmates and he always talks sense whenever he recites in class. Today, I realized he is kind as well and I now see him as an angel saving me from my dungeon of emptiness.
“Thanks for the chocolate and for making me feel better.” I said wholeheartedly.
“You are very much welcome. I love saving pretty damsels in distress.” He answered with a teasing look.
I smiled back. Suddenly, my heart that was aching with pain felt numb. Then, it felt relieved. This might be the start of a beautiful friendship or a blossoming love, perhaps?
For Tyas noona ~❤